anything that came out of his mouth!
i fucking hate being taken advantage of!
do i look like a five year old?
you can tell me you'll give me candy but never do?
you tell me that you'll take me to the park but you never show?
i'm not 5!!!
i am sick and tired of fucking people and their stupid fucking lies!!!!!! all i ever wanted was to be home, where i belong. but things are never going to happen that way.
I can't trust a single word out of his mouth anymore. i can't keep hopeing on all these empty promises he's making. i feel sick. i hate myself for giving him a chance. i should have just let him play his little game and just talked to him like a friend, just letting him know how stressed my life has been and let him pity and sympathize, but nothing more.
I HATE MY LIFE!!!! the only good thing in my life right now is my Son and my Husband. these are the only 2 people i can trust and pour my heart and soul into. right now in this place, in Las Vegas, these 2 are the only people i have to keep me sain. they are the only 2 people who keep me alive every pain staking day that passes.
no one understand how badly i wish i could cut. just let all my stress out and just let go of this world. but i made a promise to my son and on my son's life, that i would never do that again. and it's hurts to not be able to. i'm sick of crying cause it DOESN'T FUCKING HELP ANYMORE! THESE TEARS ARE NOTHING! they are just salt and water; they have no emotions attached to them, no pain, no nothing. not like my blood....
i just wish i could be home.....
i just wish i could leave this place....
i just wish i could cry with my blood instead of tears....